Something happened

My heart started beating very irregular and very hard till it simply stopped for seconds and seconds. I cried out to my wife who sat next to me holding my hand, so worried. ‘I don’t want to go yet, I can’t go yet! I closed my teary eyes and then a deep peace came over me…

Something had happened but I could understand what. My heart beat had recovered and I lied in peace in my pillows again. My head was spinning, but I had made it somehow. The worst was over and a blissful sleep came over me. Blissful, because Jezus had entered my heart!

The next day I felt completely different. Not better but different. I couldn't put my finger on it… When I shared this with my siblings, my brother said: Jezus’s spirit was in you, just talk to Him.... I felt so peaceful, all fear had gone from my heart, and all thoughts were quiet and organised.

My body felt weak and frail. Every move took so much effort. I was put on stronger steroids to get the side effects under control but couldn’t visit the hospital for the much needed blood checkup.

So I struggled day after day to deal with nausea, broken nights from steroid side effects which made my heart race and kept me awake. I was unsure when I had to go to toilet because of swellings everywhere. I felt completely exhausted with all organs being affected by the rejection effects.